i have (had) a dream

I had a strange dream this morning. It seems like there was more at the beginning, but all I remember is this: I am an old man and am running down a grassy slope, onto a small wooden dock that reaches into a large pond surrounded by trees. I jump into the water. I am trying to drown. I drop further and further down. I am trying to gasp and pull water into my lungs. No water will come in. I reach the bottom of the pond, and there is a stone wall ahead of me. There are rectangular holes dug out of the wall and I am trying to swim into one. I no longer appear to need oxygen. I am not dying. I don't need to breathe. Frustrated, I start to ascend back to the top of the pond.

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A longer post tomorrow, I promise. I'm working on a long post that I hope to have up sometime this week, recapping my favorite songs from the past year (with links!).